Things to Change

• Relationship with women:  I'm going to stop interacting with them beyond detached conversation because (and yes, it was as uncomfortable to admit this as it is for you to read it) that I've been falling in love with just about every woman who has shown me the slightest bit of affection.  I'm really lonely, and I think that an extended break will actually do me good by keeping me from feeling like I'm missing something.
• Facebook: Shortly after rambling about how much facebook sucks, Facebook started rolling out a brand-new format.  I have yet to receive it, but I really want it for obvious reasons.  This is completely irrelevant to the general theme of this post, but seriously... this is a thing to change.
• Physical fitness: I'm trying to exercise as much as possible, and I've scarcely been eating much food - I suppose that the food I am eating could be a bit healthier.
• Motivation: My own laziness (mostly stemming from my recognition of the futility of trying to accomplish anything serious before college) has actually made me quite angry and miserable lately.  So I've decided to get as much done as I can for the sake of saying that I tried at the very least.
• Music: Regrettably, I'm sick of it.  I really want to do something besides play in pits with the same people taught the exact same way.  Right now, it's just... boring.  I need to learn a new instrument or join a different ensemble or something.  Think of it this way: you can retake a course as many times as you'd like, and learn the material extremely well - but you're never going to understand differential equations if you only study basic algebra.
• Friendships:  I want to end a few of them.  I realize that as I write this, I'm becoming more and more angry, so bear with me for a bit.  While at an earlier time in my life I may have complained about not having anything to do, now I complain about not being able the things that I ought to be able to with friends. I can only say that a large portion of my friends are, at best, unreliable.  At worst, I would say that the constant last-second cancellation of "plans" make me feel like they're mocking me. (Granted, the only reason I think that is because it happens more often than it should, and the people involved have little reason to appreciate my company to begin with.)  It's time for me to weed out the people who aren't worth keeping as friends and hold on tightly to the ones I'll want to remember after high school. 
• Attitude:  I've posted this in order to remind myself to actually fix some of the things in my life that are holding me back, attitude-wise.  As I said earlier, for the past few months I've been little but angsty, isolated, and generally bitter.  Based on my what things have been on my mind the most lately, taking care of the aforementioned "Things to change" will almost certainly make me a happier guy.  Looks like it's time to once again start off on the road to self-improvement.