This will be the most absurd thing I'll post in a while, but I want to put it here in order to make it appear as if I've had the urge to post more than I actually have. There's been quite a bit to post about in my life, but there wouldn't be that much to read... as in, "this kid is a tremendous dung heap of emo."
So instead I'll share with you some of the dreams I've had in the past month or so, both of which I remember fairly well, which is an oddity. I feel that the fact that I remember them means that they have some sort of significance regarding my recent outlooks on the world.
Dream 1: Last summer in DCI there was a school in Florida where we stayed for a little while. I remember it because it had a roof similar to that of a pizza hut. Anyway, next to the school was the field where about everybody but us rehearsed, which was miserable because it was saturated with mud. We went down there (it was on a gigantic hill, which was also a problem) and played for about 15 minutes before ominous storm clouds rolled in. We were left with just enough time to push everything back up the hill and cover our equipment under a tarp and head inside to practice on the floor. Almost immediately after entering the school, the rain started coming down, quickly and heavily. Eventually it built into a monsoon-like storm (in the eyes of a Michigander) and started leaking into the building - we were incredibly worried about our equipment. It was mostly fine, but we were still awed.
Anyway, that was the real-life experience. In my dream, it was cold and the mud was frozen. I associated it with what approximates to a Michigan November. Me and a couple band kids (not drum corps kids) were randomly horsing around and shouting and laughing when another kid I know randomly whips out a pistol and shoots a girl in the shoulder. Everyone instantly falls silent in shock. The kid with the gun expresses regret and attempts to explain his action with, "I thought it would be funny." Yeah, my dreams are weird. But that's the last sound that I hear other than the sound of my own voice. I take the girl up to my car, except she gets in the driver's seat and I'm in the passenger's seat. I'm urging her to let me drive to the hospital, although I'm clearly making no attempts to do so. She sits there crying silently, when suddenly she changes into another guy I know in the blink of an eye. I continue to urge him to let me drive, but everything else around me is still completely silent and it's weird. That's the point where I can't remember anything else.
Dreams 2-4: These happened in rapid succession, and due to the vague lines that distinguish dreams this may or may not have actually been the same dream. The first thing I remember is that I was in a completely white room with these weird pod-type small rooms cut into the sides of the wall. Each of these pods is like a half-shell, lined with a round bench - and the walls and seat are completely covered in red velvet. It looks like a space-age jazz club. Anyway, in each of these pods is one woman who I can't remember, but I remember that I had made them upset or had hurt them all at one point in my life. And I sing songs to them in my dream. I can't remember which ones. But I can play the guitar in this dream, which is kind of cool.
After this, I end up somehow on a train to "South Bend" which is an overnight train ride in my dream logic, even though South Bend, Indiana is a little over an hour from my city by car. My entire family is on this train for some reason. My grandpa spends much of the time playing Freecell and I watch him. There's more but my memory of it is a bit too vague.
This is the point where things start getting "significant-feeling." We all get off at "South Bend" which is a disgusting 19th-century backwater farming community. After wandering around in dusty trails through the woods for a bit, I come across a farmyard completely filled with hundreds of Great Danes. I have to cross from one end of this yard to the other, which is on a downward slope. The dogs mostly keep to themselves though, and I get through without any issues. At the bottom of the yard/hill is a shed, and around the other side of this shed is sort of a flat circus ring (without the ring) and a set of bleachers full of teenage girls. They're all wearing the same clothes (which was a white t-shirt, black shorts and roller skates) and frantically trying to grab crows and other random birds out of the air as they fly above them. Naturally, I am confused. I ask one of them what they are doing, and suddenly the entire troupe runs down the bleachers into the "ring" and, out of nowhere, perform this elaborately choreographed disco rollerskating routine. When the song ends and they finish dramatically, I begin clapping (it was quite an impressive feat) only to be startled by the sound of an adult woman's voice yelling, "MOVE OUT" to the group of girls. Suddenly, they all sink into the dirt, and they begin moving down a short little trail through the woods. I can see them because I'm following their tracks in the dirt. As I round the last bend of this trail, I end up following them onto the beach of the North Shore of South Haven, Michigan. The sun is setting. I run ahead of them on the beach, which I remember being a difficult task because I was suddenly wearing hiking boots. When I finally reach the head of the group, they all suddenly climb out of the sand and congratulate me for getting ahead of them. I spend the rest of the walk down to South Haven's pier talking to and befriending these girls. When we get there, there is a gigantic floating tour bus waiting for them to leave on. I am very sad about this for some reason. They all skate another routine to the one song I remember being present in these dreams: "What If God Was One Of Us." It was also pretty good. We all give each other our goodbyes and they pile into the bus and float down the remainder of the Black River which dumps out into Lake Michigan from the pier(s). I chase them all the way down the pier, waving at them as they wave back at me. I wait at the end, watching them float off onto the horizon as the sun sets. It's sort of beautiful. I remember it being really bittersweet, mostly because I was going to miss them a lot for a reason that can only be explained as dream logic. By the end they are floating right in front of the sun as the last sliver slips below the surface of the water. As this happens, everything goes dark and I startle awake. I was crying when I woke up.
I've already recited this story to the people I feel are most capable of making a legitimate stab at its meaning. Since it's my own mind, of course, I am the least capable interpreter of my dreams. They may end up meaning that in my dreams I am a crazy person, but I can't help but feel that all of these dreams reflect something important in my life of which I'm not very aware.
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